Emva kweminyaka esixhenxe, ndiyakwazi ukuqhuba kwakhona (kwiintsuku ezilungileyo).
Indlela ngaphambi kokuba ndiqale ndicinga nge-multiple sclerosis (MS) okanye ngaba neempawu ezigqibeleni zikhokelela ekuxilongweni kwam, ndavelisa ukwesaba okukhulu ukuqhuba. Ndiya kubeka ityala kwi-jet lag, ingilazi yewayini endiyidlile ngobusuku okanye phambi kwe-lens.
Kwakunzima, njengoko zininzi zezi zimpawu. Ndiza kungena emotweni kwaye ndiziva ndixhalabile ngoko nangoko.
Ndiya kugxininisa, ndizenzele ukuba ndihambe, nangona ndandithuthuzela lonke ixesha. Ndandiziva ngathi ndikhona kumdlalo wevidiyo, nangona kwakukho ezinye iimoto ezimbalwa endleleni kwaye isantya siphume. Imoto yokuguqula imoto eyiyure ezili-100 ngaphambi kwam iyazama ukuba ndivame kwi-brakes, njengoko kwakubonakala ngathi ukuxabana kwakungenakukhunjulwa "nabangenangqiqo" kunye nabaqhubi abaphosakeleyo endleleni. Ukusondeza isangqa sezithuthi kuya kuba yinkinga yokubamba isisu yokuzama ukufumana ukuvula, ukulinda ixesha elide, ekugqibeleni ukukhawuleza phambi kweendlela njengoko umntu ehloniphekile kwaye ekhwaza.
Wonke umntu endikukhankanyile oku ukuba unokuxilongwa kunye neengcebiso. "Ucinezelekile." Hayi, ndandingenjalo (ngaphandle kobuchule bokuqhuba). Ufuna ukulala okungaphezulu. Hayi, ndilele ngokuhle. "Kufuneka uqhubeke uqhuba." Ndandiqhuba iminyaka engama-20 ngelo xesha, ngoko ke ndingeke ndibone oko oku kuthetha ukuthini.
Emva kokuba ndifumene ukuxilongwa kwe-MS, malunga neenyanga ezili-6 kamva, kwaye ndafunda okungakumbi malunga nesi sifo, izinto zenza ingqiqo.
Ndicinga ukuba into endikujongayo yayiyindlela yokungaziqondi kakuhle , ukuphuculwa kweenkcukacha ezenza kube nzima ukudibanisa nokwenza amakhulu amancinci amancinci afakelwe ukuqhuba.
Ndinexesha eliyiminyaka engama-7 xa ndingazange ndiqhube naphi na. Kwakunzima kakhulu, njengoko ndandithembele ngokwenene kumyeni wam ukuba andincede ndiphume ngezinto zendlu.
Ndandisoloko ndivakalelwa enetyala ngokumcela ukuba andithabathe kwindawo ethile-nangona kwakungekho nto ibuhlungu ngathi, kwakunezinye izinto ezafuneka ukuba enze.
Le mihla, ndiqhuba ngaphezulu ukuqhuba. Sineemoto ezahlukileyo ezazincinci, kodwa ziphakamileyo ngokwaneleyo emhlabathini, kwaye zabonakala ngokubonakalayo. Kukho amaxesha amahle (ukuhlakanipha-ukuqhuba), apho ndiza kuhamba khona ngokuzithemba izitalato zendawo (akukho namathuba okuhamba nami) kwaye ndizive ngathi ndilawulwa yendalo yonke. Ngaloo mihla, ndiphantse ndive "ngokuqhelekileyo" -nokukwenza izinto zenzeke njengomntu oqhelekileyo, kwishedyuli sam, kwaye utshintshe izicwangciso zam ukuba ndifuna ukuhamba phakathi.
Kukho kusekho phakathi kwexesha, apho ndifumana khona isiqingatha ukuya kwam, ndiqonda ukuba mhlawumbi le nto ayilungile. Ngethuba la maxesha, ndigcina ingxoxo yengqondo ehambayo, ndizitsho ukuba ukukhanya kwezithuthi kuya kuza kwaye kungabikho kwi-brakes xa umntu ephosa phambili phambi kwam. Andiyidlale umculo kwaye andinakuthetha nabani na abagibeli emotweni, okungafanekiyo.
Musa ukungahambi kakuhle - andiyikuqhuba xa ndiziva ndincinci okanye ndifumana nayiphi na impawu ze-MS , ezifana ne- paresthesia , intloko yesifo okanye ukukhathala okukhulu.
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Musa ukuxhalaba xa ufumana ukuqhuba ukuqhuba.
Enye ingcinga efanelekileyo kukuba wenze i-MS inventory ngaphambi kokuqhuba. Zibuze ukuba uvakalelwa njani ngaloo mini.
Ngexa udidekile, ziqhayisa ngokuhlala ekhaya okanye uvumele omnye umntu ukuba aqhube umbane ukuba ungeva kakuhle malunga nokuhamba emva kwevili-uyathemba umthambo wakho, uqaphela i-MS yakho, kwaye uyazinyamekela.
> Ehlelwe nguDkt. Colleen Doherty, ngo-Agasti wesi-2, 2016.